The beginning of goodbye

I heard from the family I will be staying with in France and they finally got the papers for my visa! As soon as I get them I have to go to to French Consulate in Chicago and get them approved. Up until this point the thought of me going overseas for a year and leaving college life for good has just been something that I have enjoyed thinking about but the reality of it all is just beginning to hit.
My boyfriend leaves for London and then Italy after that, tonight was the last night I get to see him for a while. Hopefully he will be visiting me in Strasbourg soon. My friends Kristen and Justin threw a surprise going away party for Alex and everything is just snowballing.
It feels like things are spiraling into something I can't seem to stop. I don't just mean going to France. I am saying goodbye to my undergraduate years. Even though I will still be taking courses online it won't be the same and I won't ever be coming back to Iowa for class. The next time I am back in the states will be for Kristen and Justin's wedding and after my year in France I will have law school. I am growing up *sigh* it feels good to know that I can make decisions for my life based purely off of how I envision my life to be. It is scary to know that the responsibilities will keep growing.
I am anxious right now about saying goodbye.